i don't know what i'm doing or how i'm feeling or why i do the things i do. i go from extreme affection to extreme lonliness to extreme sadness
and it feels an incredibley idiotic process. it feels like i will just live until i dont anymore. its not even about that anymore, im not seeking meaning
and shit because i know its not there. i just dont want to be so mastered by uncontrollable feelings. i need something for the night times.
"They say they don’t know when but a day is gonna come. When there won’t
be a moon and there won’t be a sun. It will just go black. It will just
go back to the way it was before." — Conor Oberst